1. Re-paint and organize my room. Damn you Ondoy! >=(
2. Re-open my doll clothes business. (Atelier HMatsumoto)
3. Start a new business. Thanks Gary! :3
4. Travel outside the Philippines.
5. Get a new regular job.
nervous breakdowns occur intensely during christmas season. theres a lot going through my mind right now. fuck this yultide season, xmas rushing, spoiling people = bullshit hapiness made from materialistic enjoyment. a lot of people dont see the real deal about christmas w/c is total opposite to what is happening and they just fulfill themselves with shopping, eating, and shopping, and eating.
the world has gone mad and the only thing that's left to do is total cleansing.... racial cleansing!
total tayo rin naman ang sisira sa ating mga sarili. hndi si God, hindi ang climte, hindi ang kahit ano pang FORCE sa mundo. tao ang sisira sa tao.. ikaw, ako, tayong lahat.
this isnt just negativity talking here. im way past negativism and im actually using negativity to rationalize everything that I've seen, experienced and read from current events, to just strolling around the city, walking through the enclave of soicial realism.
i want to transform this whole negative vibe, that the normal people see in me, into a good thing that will not just benefit myself, but other socialy deficient individuals.. instead of sucking out every last drop of depression and actually killng themselves, literaly or figuratively, why not use this lowly kind of feeling into something good, like exercising our thinking mind, reasoning, and applying knowledge.
crackhead thinking? extreme paranoia? call it whatever you want... the only thing that a person can and will need in life, is their mind.
Intelligence implies solving problems, learning from experience, and reasoning abstractly:
"The world of the future will be an ever more demanding struggle against the limitations of our intelligence" -Norbert Wiener
Reason, the capacity for logical, rational, and analytic thought, embraces comprehending, evaluating, and drawing conclusions:
"Since I have had the full use of my reason, nobody has ever heard me laugh" -Earl of Chesterfield